Waiting for the Pieces

I had been waiting to write this until I had more information. More awareness on what was going to happen. More knowledge of what I would be doing, what the schedule would be, and so forth. I should know by now that God usually doesn't give us all of the information. I'm still waiting on that spreadsheet of the next 20 years, in fact. More often than not, the "more" comes when we keep going forward while leaving the space for Him to fill. So, much overdue, here is the latest..as far as I know...

As many of you know, I was planning on heading back to Italy to rejoin the organization Operation Mobilization for the second School of Arts in Missions as a member of staff - playing the role of Assistant Dance Mentor and Student Life Coordinator. The invitation unofficially came about two weeks into the school last year, and officially came mid-July of 2012. Many letters were sent and much enthusiasm surrounded it all. In addition to this excitement, I met and began an intentional relationship with one of the Italian volunteers who had been helping at the school about two and a half weeks prior to the end of the school. Marco came out to visit and had a - ahem - rather serious conversation with my parents before he left. All this to say, things were looking great for the "plan" to head back to Italy. 

Mid-October, I received a telephone call from Mat Carson, the visionary behind the school and the one who had invited me on this adventure many months ago. He informed me that the core group of OM Arts staff had met and as a unified body decided to postpone the school for another year. I don't know if deep down God had been preparing me to receive this news without my own realization or if He just poured out abundant peace in that moment, but I was not at all surprised upon hearing the news. Not that I expected it or was thinking it would happen, I just wasn't surprised.

So, with much prayer, discussion, and tears, I made the decision to continue my journey in Italy. Ultimately, I decided to stay in California about two weeks longer than I originally had planned, and head to Italy on January 25, 2013. I will be spending about three weeks with Marco and his family in their home town, before we both return to Torre Pellice (the town where the school was held last year). I will be living with a woman named Jill McAfee who leads worship all over Europe for many of the OM international conferences and she often lead worship for us at the school last year. Not too long before receiving the news about the school this year, her roommate moved out leaving her in need of a roommate and me in need of a place to live. God fielded that one (of course) in a way I don't think either of us imagined it happening.

Over the last few months since receiving this news and adjusting to the idea of a new "plan" things have been moving right along. Dancing, teaching, visiting, and working...life has not really slowed down at all. And all of a sudden I am now sitting at the airport in San Francisco awaiting the signal to board flight 284 to London/ Heathrow airport continuing on to Milan/Malpensa. I think back to this time last year and I was in almost the exact same spot give or take a week. I thought that this year would be the same. There will be familiar faces and places, but overall, the picture has changed. I'm still not sure where the final pieces are.

Which is sort of why this update to all of you wonderful friends and supporters has been so overdue. I've been waiting. Waiting until I knew more, until I had more details or facts or seemingly logical plans to share. But what I've learned is God doesn't work in spreadsheets or 5-year plans. He is the Master of awesome ideas and big dreams, and He asks for our trust. And when we really decide to invest our trust in Him I think we sometimes expect a big life-plan reveal. What I got this time was, "I trust you with decision Lauren, and whatever you decide, I'm with you!" Hold the phone...God trusts ME???? With a big decision??? I don't know how I feel about that...

We have to make decisions though, don't we? If we have any hope of living life to the fullest extent that God intended, we have to make those decisions and take those steps. It's kind of boring otherwise...

With all of this, I promise to keep the updates more regular and active. I promise to be upfront with everything that is happening and include all of you friends and loved ones in on the puzzle picture as it unfolds. I would just ask for your prayer for my ears, eyes and heart to be wide open to the Father's incredible love as it is poured out in the unveiling of my life.

For now, I will be joining with Marco and his friend David as they start a sports ministry program in Torre Pellice (just outside of Bobbio). I will be involved in bringing dance into the weekly sports camps they run for local youth as well as into more long term youth programs they are planning right now. A blessing of having more of a free schedule is that I will be more available to invest in the culture and adapting to a new way of life. I will go with another missionary couple to language classes, which will allow me to communicate with the students I will be interacting with on a regular basis. Also, I have stayed connected with a woman in the area who owns her own dance studio and she has suggested monthly collaborations that would take place at her studio. Mostly, I want to be available for Him to move. I want to be His hands and feet and dance like crazy for the glory of His Name!

I don't have a direct account for financial support, but if you do feel led to support in this way, here are the steps...

go to fca.org

click on "donate" on the top menu bar (right side) and scroll down to click on "single donation"

on the first line of the "single donation" page under "giving to fca by credit card" scroll to choose the option "individual staff person"

underneath this line, enter "Europe, David Guehring"

fill out the rest of the information on the page

click "submit"

email David Guehring at dguehring@fca.org and tell him their name, how much their contribution was for and that it should go to Lauren Cosentino

Thank you everyone for your gracious support...I love you and will keep sharing as He keeps revealing...

In His Steps,
Lauren

A Welcome to Fall...in Winter

Again, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being absent for so long. I'm sorry for neglecting this delightful project that seems to have gotten much less attention than it deserves in the last few months...tragedy I tell you...

So, what's new? Well, I'm heading to Italy on January 25 for (hopefully) 6 months. The original plan of being on staff for the second OM Arts School of Mission (Incarnate 2013) has changed as the decision was made to postpone the school for one year. As of now it looks like I will be helping the ministry Marco is involved in get off the ground as they start up the Italy branch of the organization (to find out more go to their website here...SRS Online). Then from there only God knows...which is kind of comforting in a weird, out of control, trusting someone else with your life kind of way. Good thing the Someone I'm trusting is also the Someone who made me so at least He knows me pretty well...

Things with Marco are moving along just swimmingly. He spent the month of September here in California...in my house with my parents and I. I was dancing most of the month which meant he spent A LOT of time with my parents. Turns out it wasn't such a bad thing ;)

After September my thoughts of things calming down were proven ridiculously incorrect and things just kept going. I started working at a lovely home decorating store called Portico with some dear friends of mine, Emma and Sarah Grover, kept dancing, and starting choreography for the SONdance Christmas show. The show was this weekend and it went really well. The students worked so hard and totally rocked! It has been an amazing experience being a part of this family of people who are passionate about dance and using their gifts to praise the One who gave them these gifts to begin with.

I haven't had a ton of time to cook or bake lately and I have really missed it. My creative drive is at an all time low right now, which really bums me out. But, I do have a couple of recipes that I have been meaning to share...since October...

Live Granola
makes a lot of servings
I adapted this recipe from Elana's Pantry Granola recipe...

• I used 1 cup of raw walnuts instead of macadamia nuts

Other than that change, follow her recipe and enjoy however you want! 

Apple-Pearsauce

also makes a lot of servings

• about 2-3lbs of apples and pears, chopped (I used fuji and bosc)
• 1/4 cup water
• juice of 1 lemon
• 1 tsp. cinnamon
• 1/4 tsp. nutmeg

(these are all rough estimations as I combined a couple of different recipes)

In a large saucepan or pot combine all of the ingredients. Bring to a boil over medium-high heat. Once it begins to boil, reduce heat and allow to simmer for about 20 minutes stirring occasionally. Transfer mixture to a food processor or blender and process until the texture is uniform, but not completely liquified. Store in an airtight container and store in refrigerator for up to 5 days. You can also freeze and store in the freezer for a couple of months. 

I combined the granola with warmed up apple-pearsauce for breakfast on several occasions and it was delicious-ly fall-like...

Now...onto winter...

The Time of the Great Pumpkin...

Yes, it is that time. Pumpkins are not so quietly invading every store, Starbucks and roadside stand. The first kiss of autumn has landed on the breeze and rustled the trees. I think, summer is on its way out...FINALLY! And with that, comes the visit from the Great Pumpkin - at least according to Linus that's what happens. I think I'll join in his welcome celebrations and ring in this autumnal visitor with a couple of lovely pumpkin recipes to warm the soul and slip into a quiet state of nostalgia...

Pumpkin Puree

• small pie pumpkin 
• oil of choice (I used grapeseed oil because it doesn't have a distinct flavor and I would be using the pumpkin for baking)

Preheat oven to 400F. Cut top and bottom off of pumpkin. Place flat side down and slice in half. Scrape out seeds (save for roasting!!) and lightly drizzle with oil. Place cut side down on foil or parchment lined baking sheet and bake at 400F for about 45 minutes or until you can pierce the skin easily with a fork. Remove from oven and allow to cool for 10 minutes. Scrape out flesh and puree in food processor or blender. Store in refrigerator or freezer for any and all pumpkin recipes you may have in store! 

Vegan/Paleo Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookies
makes about 24

• 2 cups almond meal/flour
• 1 tsp. baking soda
• 1 tsp. pumpkin pie spice
• 1 cup dark chocolate chunks
• 1/4 cup agave
• 1/3 cup coconut or grapeseed oil
• 1 TBS vanilla
• 1/2 cup fresh pumpkin puree (canned is fine, but honestly once you go fresh it's hard to go back)

Preheat oven to 350F. Line two baking sheets with parchment paper and set aside. Mix all ingredients together in one bowl and combine thoroughly without over-mixing. Drop by generous teaspoonfuls onto lined baking sheets. Bake for 9-10 minutes. When finished, allow to cool slightly. These are very moist cookies and will not firm up much after cooling - which is how cookies should be, right?

Crockpot Chicken and Pumpkin Curry Paleo Pizza

For Chicken and Pumpkin Curry:

• 2 medium organic boneless, skinless chicken breasts
• 1 medium onion chopped
• 1 roasted pie pumpkin (cubed, not pureed)
• 2 garlic cloves, minced
• 2 TBS. curry powder
• 1 tsp. cinnamon
• 1 tsp. chili powder
• 1 tsp. cumin
• 1/2 cup water
• salt and pepper as desired

Turn on crockpot to low. Place all ingredients in crockpot and cook on low for 6-8 hours. When finished, chicken should be moist enough to easily shred when stirred. Combine all ingredients and set aside. 

recipe for Paleo Pizza crust here: Paleo Pizza Crust

Before placing crust in oven for second baking, top with desired amount of chicken and pumpkin curry. Also, if you feel like putting any other toppings on your pizza, now is the time. Bake for 25 minutes at 350F and enjoy!!

Vegan Black Bean Quinoa Mango Salad w/ Wilted Kale

My dad is in Scotland now on a serious golf trip. And of course my mom and I miss him, but it's nice to have a little more room for experimentation in cooking. Not that he's not adventurous, he is totally. But he doesn't always feed into the organic, natural, sometimes no meat is ok mindset. He'll try it, but at the end of the day he does enjoy the more traditional fare. So, on Sunday, I decided to try a little something to test on the guy when he gets home...and I think we have a winner...

Yum. Seriously. Yum. We had company for dinner last Wednesday and my mom made an amazing mango chutney by combining a pre-made chutney with some other ingredients - it was fabuliscious. We had a mango that needed to be used ASAP so I thought, why not combine the two? Done.

Then it was simply a matter of pairing. Black beans and mango? Yes please. Quinoa is an awesome substitute for rice because it is PACKED with protein and great for digestion. So there, main dish done. Now how about them greens?

We also had some kale that needed to be used and my mom suggested throwing in the red onion too (because no one likes rotten red onions..)

So here it is, a deliciously light summer meal that I'm pretty sure will be dad approved (might take some convincing for Marco though...)

Black Bean Quinoa Mango Salad
serves 2-4 

• 1/2 cup quinoa
• 1 can whole organic black beans (rinsed)
• 1/2 cup homemade mango chutney with add-ins (this is the recipe my mom used: Mar-a-Lago Pear Chutney, plus peach jelly) 
• 1 whole mango, chopped
• 1 whole avocado chopped

Cook quinoa according to package directions (usually 1 cup water to 1/2 cup quinoa). Set aside to cool when done cooking. While it is cooling do this...

Wilted Kale

serves 2

• 2 cups baby kale, rinsed
• 1/2 red onion, thinly sliced
• 1/4 cup virgin organic coconut oil
• 1 garlic clove, crushed

Heat oil over medium-low heat in large saucepan. Add in chopped garlic and sauté until lightly browned. Throw in onions and kale. Stir gently until everything is coated with oil. Lower heat to low and cover pan. Let simmer on low for about 5-10 minutes until kale is wilted, but not soggy. Remove from heat and set aside.

Before serving, mix black beans, mango, avocado, and chutney into the the quinoa. 

Serve like this..or not. But it's really pretty if you do it like this so you should...

Ratatouille: Beyond the Vegetables

No, I'm not referring to the adorable Pixar film. I am talking about the dish itself - that delightfully rich and wonderful combination of eggplant, zucchini, onions, tomatoes, and peppers. Looking at it on a plate, one might think that the process is simple - a little sauté and BAM! there you have it. That's what I thought. Until one day as I was browsing some other food blogs (again, Foodgawker...the ultimate food-lover's distraction) and found a site with Julia Child's ratatouille recipe. Being a lover of 1) Julia Child, 2) all things French (sorry Marco, you'll just have to get used to it...), 3) cooking, 4) vegetables (again Marco...you'll learn to love them I promise), I of course clicked on over to read the claimed official recipe. Oh la, la, la, la...Julia!!!! It is one of the LONGEST cooking processes I've ever seen in my life. I nearly clicked away, but then paused and suddenly had a seriously ridiculous desire to conquer this recipe. That was that. I would make Julia Child's Ratatouille.

The next morning, I walked to the local Farmer's Market in downtown Modesto and picked up the ingredients I needed - I modified the quantity for one (think nice dinner salad size). My plan was to make it that afternoon, but life happened as always and it would be put off for a few more days. Finally, Ratatouille day came and I began the process around noon - noon:30...and finished around 2:30. Yes, that's right. Two full hours dedicated to the creation of what appears on a plate to be a simple concoction of sautéed vegetables. The whole time I was cooking, with my Pandora playing a delightful compilation, I kept thinking about how I would create this blog post. The idea that kept flashing in my head? Ratatouille and a Lesson in Patience. Because, trust me, you've gotta have the latter if you're going to conquer the former. Before I go any further, here's the recipe source and pictures of my process...

Julia Child's Ratatouille

(quantities adjusted)

my interpretation of how to cut the eggplant and zucchini

 green bell peppers and yellow onions sautéing 

tomatoes (peeled, de-seeded, de-juiced) in with onions and peppers

all the veggies cookin' together

final product (plus olives...my own addition just because...)


























To give you a nice little time frame, I made this about a week and a half ago. I've been wanting to post, thinking about posting, but just hadn't done it yet. Until today. This morning I was reading in Luke 10, and at the end came to verses 41-42...

"'Martha, Martha,' the Lord answered, 'you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.'" 


To give some context, Martha and Mary were sisters whom Jesus went to visit. Martha was busy with certain necessary preparations, while Mary sat at Jesus' feet and listened to him talk. Simply listened - that's all. She just enjoyed his company and his teachings and his stories. And honestly, I have read this verse a million times over and it has been a consistent reminder to me when I start to allow stress and worry to overshadow everything else going on in my life. But, every time I do read this verse, something different is going on. Some other stress or worry has made its way into things giving me strange dreams, an overeagerness to plan and write everything down, and then the desire to turn and run away when I actually look at the schedule I've just made.

I think Mary had it right though... Which is funny to say considering my last post was about taking action. However, Mary did take action eventually. Her time would come to be proactive. To run to Jesus, to beg and plead for her brother's sake, to tell others of Jesus whereabouts - to be an advocate and witness. But first, she chose to listen. She chose to invest her time into what would be more beneficial and helpful in the long run.

Things are kind of crazy right now - I am back into preparations for the road to Italy again, potentially and hopefully to stay this time, but definitely for the school again in 2013 (to get more info go here - Incarnate - 2013... I'll be sending out my own email newsletter soon). I've started seriously dancing again with rehearsals and workshops now and classes starting soon. September will be full with performances, rehearsals, classes, starting a new job, Marco coming to visit, and continuing the preparations for Italy. Someone get me a bed, seriously strong sleep meds, and wake me up when it's done! Oh but wait, life doesn't happen like that, huh?

Enter Mary.

Girl sat down and listened. She ceased from doing. She invested her time. She enjoyed the process. It's so simple.

But we get impatient because we don't have just the right answer for every single thing in life. So we rush, make stuff up and complicate the whole of it. Sometimes action is what is required. Sometimes we need a Mary...or in my case a Julia.

So take the time. Make the ratatouille. Taste and see that the Lord is Good. 

He fed. He walked. He healed.

Jesus was a man of action.
He listened. He spoke. He taught. He went out. He retreated. He called. He led. He washed. He died. He rose....

He fed...
Matthew 14:16-20
"Jesus replied, 'They do not need to go away. You give them something to eat.'
'We have here only five loaves of bread and two fish,' they answered.
'Bring them here to me,' he said. And he directed the people to sit down on the grass. Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to the disciple, and the disciples gave them to the people. They all ate and were satisfied..."

He walked...
Matthew 14:25-31
"During the fourth watch of the night Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. 'It's a ghost,' they said, and cried out in fear. But Jesus immediately said to them: 'Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid.'
'Lord, if it's you,' Peter replied, 'tell me to come to you on the water.'
'Come,' he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, 'Lord, save me!'
Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. 'You of little faith,' he said, 'why did you doubt?'"

He healed...
Matthew 14:35-36
"And when the men of that place recognized Jesus, they sent word to all the surrounding country. People brought all their sick to him and begged him to let the sick just touch the edge of his cloak, and all who touched him were healed."

the Sea and Shores of Galilee, 

where some of Jesus' ministry took place

including the above events

And in the midst of all this action - all of these verbs - I see a common adjective describing Jesus. Provider. He provides. Another action. 

Interestingly enough, we are called to live with Jesus as our example. Wouldn't that indicate some action? Some sort of ministry or path or walk of life to follow, taking action in some way. Whether that action be big and bold, or quiet and receptive...we are called to action. Sometimes we don't know where that action will take us. But, we must move. We must act. 

I confess, I'm not always the best example of this. Sure I stay busy and active - it's part of who I am. But, the action is not always the "Jesus action" so to say. Sometimes it's simply busyness. Sometimes I wave the "waiting for a word" flag. And it's usually somewhere in the midst of this routine, when I'm feeling antsy and unsettled and anxious (and I apologize to anyone who has been on the receiving end during these times) that God provides the not so subtle reminder of the things required for the race He's placed me in....

Trust.

Humility.

Action.

When complacency sets in, the questions begin. When the questions begin, the need for personal affirmation takes over. The trust in God falls, and I wonder why I feel like I'm right back where I started once again.

But the truth is, I'm not. I'm on a journey. I'm going somewhere. I'm doing something. And it's somewhere and something waaaaaay bigger than myself. Bigger than my brain can fully grasp. Bigger than my eyes can fully see. God is making my dreams come true - say WHAT???

Who knew that when God - the Creator of the universe - says He is going to do something He actually means it. Crazy right? In a world where promises and guarantees are tossed around like beads at Mardi Gras (guaranteed or your money back!), and just as quickly broken or compromised, there is One who means what He says without all the extra fluff. So when He started making my dreams a reality, naturally I questioned. I mean it makes perfect sense, right? Oh ye of too small a brain...when wilt thou learneth?????

Well, here I am once again, "learneth-ing" another lesson. In the midst of the waiting, the over-action, and the emotional reaction, sometimes you just have to go.

It seems so simple. Just go! Right, ok, well call me Peter as I swim among the barrage of questions that just flooded my brain. Until, I reach up and there is the hand pulling me back on my feet, reminding me of His presence, His provision, His call. So I will take the step. What is the step? Well, for those who followed my most recent journey, this may look familiar...

Bobbio Pellice, Piemonte, Italia;

where some of Lauren's ministry took place,

and where there's more to come

While I do not know everything that will happen, I do know that He does. He provided the means once, and He will provide again. He knows the way. I will follow. Someone very dear to my heart (one of those dreams come true, you might say) shared this...

Acts 20:22-24

"And now, compelled by the Spirit, I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there. I only know that in every city the Holy Spirit warns me that prison and hardships are facing me. However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me - the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace." 

Once again, I am taking the road to my Jerusalem - to Italy. Another leg of the race is underway, and it's time to go. I am asking for your prayers of support and partnership now as more comes together for this journey. I will be starting a newsletter via email very soon, so if you would like to receive updates this way, please send me your email address at dancinLo488@gmail.com. 

It's time for action. Time to go, time to move, time to live...

She listened. She followed. She danced.

Vegan Antipasto Spaghetti Squash

It has been much, much, much too long. I'm sorry my dear friends...sometimes life gets in the way, you know? But alas, I have missed this little project immensely and found it high time to get back to it! So, I give you this delightful dish...

Spaghetti squash aren't in season, but I was craving one. I was also craving olives. So, I combined the two. Bam, 'nuff said.

Vegan Antipasto Spaghetti Squash
serves...me

• 1 small spaghetti squash
• about 1 cup mixed olives (I used a combination of kalamata, green stuffed with garlic, and another variety of green), sliced
• about 1/2 cup sliced hearts of palm
• about 1/2 cup roasted, marinated red pepper (I got these from the olive bar at the local grocery store)
• olive oil
• ground pepper

Preheat oven to 400F. Zap the squash in the microwave just to soften it a bit. Slice squash in half, long-ways, and drizzle with olive oil and ground pepper. Place cut side down in a baking dish. Bake at 400F for 45 minutes. In the meantime, slice olives. When the squash is done, allow to cool enough to handle. Scoop squash flesh into a bowl and pull apart so it resembles spaghetti. Throw in the olives and mix together. Buon appetito!